I can't sleep. Whether it's general restlessness, a product of having real-life Princess-and-the-Pea sensitivity, or the breeding ground for inspiration...maybe a little bit of each, I'm just gonna write and see what comes out of this equally sleep deprived and motivated mind.
The truth is, I just like writing words. I love the way it feels to create, and release it into the universe.
You know those nights where there comes a point of either deciding to continue wriggling around trying to get comfortable and keep your eyes closed for hours to no avail or just giving in to the insomnia? I'm there. Sometimes you just have to submit to the chaos - or something bigger, and go with it.
I've been finding so much relief, love, and power lately from surrendering to God's will for my life. I don't believe His will is as passive as we often make it out to be. He empowers us to move forward and make our own choices. It's not like we have to constantly be raising our hand, waiting for Him to call on us to use the restroom...praise God!
But there is such wisdom and intimacy in learning to be guided by Him. Letting Him direct your paths - not in a militaristic way, but like waves. Lately my focus has been on learning how to dance with God. It's interactive. And one thing I've found over and over is that it gets real awkward and friction-y when I try to lead. I have influence in our relationship, but, ultimately, He's the one guiding me. When I let Him, things just line up. When I put His will above my own independent plan for my life, I find that His way is much better for me than I thought mine were! Resisting His will reminds me of a kid insisting their parent get them a toy car when the parent really wants to get them a real car - and prepare them to fully appreciate that gift.
I think we can get stuck spending so much time guarding our control that we miss out on much of the actual dancing and flowing with God. And that's the best part!
I've found myself constantly having to unclench my control-thirsty fists before Him and allow Him to tenderly guide me in the way I should go.
His leading and prompting is much more a wave you learn to surf than a bulleted list of what to do or not do. What a joy to dance with Him, surf with Him, and thrive under His loving, empowering protection!
Are there areas in your life where you need to hand the reigns over to God...again? Don't worry, I've been there! But that has never meant I ever needed to stay there...
Take a moment, breathe. Ask yourself what you need to let go of and what you need to trust God about. Ask Him to guide you. Then listen, follow His lead, and enjoy the dance!
The Lord is my shepherd;I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness for the sake of His name. Psalm 23:1-3