I'm writing this with shaky hands as I just about made my husband call the fire department to get me down from our roof. DIY painting. What can I say?
I offered to climb up there since my husband's afraid of heights. Little did I know that I'm worse than him! It doesn't help that our roof slants down either.
It's weird what trips us up.
I've always loved roller coasters and flying, and I had wanted to zip-line through the forest soon. I thought I'd be fine. I'm drawn to the sky when I know I'm secure. But not when I have to rely only on myself.
For the longest time, I sprawled out on my belly at the crest of the roof, where both sides slanted up. I legitimately froze and thought to myself in panic, "I don't wanna die!"
Although calling the fire department seemed better than making my way back down, it would have been way worse. A crowd of people staring at me in my cowardice would have probably psyched me out even more.
I wasn't able to come down on my own.
I had to rely on my husband to coach me and help plant my feet back on the ladder. Did I hyperventilate? Yes. Did I cry? A little. But I made it.
I'm a little bummed that I'm not as brave as I thought I was. I'm glad I was at least able to get down without help from the fire department. That counts for something, right?
There's something beautiful about getting through something hard, even if you need the help of others to do it. We don't have to go through life alone.
Faith & Trust
While it took me forever, I eventually found the small amount of trust and faith I needed to come down. In the end, I had to say, "I trust you," to my husband as he took hold of my feet to place them on the ladder.
There comes a point where you have to surrender to faith, even in the midst of fear. You have to trust who's looking out for you. You have to believe you can make it through what you're going through.
I'm sure you've heard the quote from Nelson Mandela: "Bravery is not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it." It's so true. And triumphing over fear doesn't mean that we have to do it alone.
Got any situations that make you feel like you're walking a tightrope above a cityscape? If you've gotta get through it, don't be afraid to get the help you need. Learn to lean on the loved ones who've got your back, and on God, who is strong enough for our weaknesses.
Wherever you're at today, I'm rooting for you. Here's to making it through the freaky parts of life and moving forward.